Suicide Imprint

Listen here to the live recording of the reading 'Suicide Imprint' at Instar Lodge.

Sept 17th we hosted a group of courageous women writers (myself included, pictured here) who shared their riveting autobiographical stories of suicide.  Rarely is there an opportunity to listen to a suicide survivor speak their truth and yet suicide occurs frequently within our communities.  Suicide is on the rise increasing over 2% a year.  The time is now to begin speaking of it and listening deeply.  The authors this evening read from a small chapbook titled Suicide Imprint that they created this year, in a workshop organized by Maureen Cummins and Denise Ranaghan, led by author Beverly Donofrio.  The workshop was supported with funding and space provided by the Mental Health Association in Kingston, NY.  The authors included: Ingrid Blaufarb Hughes, Dawn Breeze (me!), Lorraine Coscia-Ackerman, Maureen Cummins, Linda Melick, Karen Ogborn, and Denise Ranaghan.

Following the reading the authors participated in an open conversation with the audience about their personal experiences with suicide, as well as shared ideas and thoughts about prevention, stigma, and how to help support survivors. 

We have made a limited number of the hand-sewn chapbooks available for purchase on our online store. 

Time and Again, Instar Lodge's Inaugural Exhibit

Opening: August 20th 5-7p.m.  Concert: 8p.m.
Viewing Hours: Aug 21, 27, 28 from 12-6p.m.
Phone: 917-622-5141

August 20th was the opening reception to celebrate Time and Again, an exhibit of new work from distinguished contemporary artists living and working in Germantown, New York. Featuring works by Melora Kuhn, William Stone, Jersey Walz, Dawn Breeze, Nancy Barber, Michael Eudy, Stephen Reynolds, Pamela J. Wallace, Dana Gentile, Valerie Shaff and Artseeds—children from the Throwing Seeds arts class, with a musical performance by Alexander Turnquist. 

This inaugural show marks the official launch of Instar Lodge, a creative space offering workshops and lectures, artist residencies, performances and screenings, a dedicated writing room and innovative arts programming for children. Instar’s mission is to foster community, while making artistic opportunities accessible to all, with special attention given towards supporting women and mother artists.

Housed in a former Odd Fellows lodge, Instar boasts an array of stunning, inspiring spaces that beg to be seen and explored in person. With Founder and Director Dawn Breeze at the helm, Instar is destined to become an artistic hub, drawing the best and brightest of the region to gather and collaborate.  

Time and Again takes its name from the notion of re- as in everything that is done again, such as: reimagining, reliving and reinventing. Breeze, who organized the show, saw the theme as a through line between the featured works, and the revival of the once lively lodge now being reinhabited with new Odd Fellows. “It's often the reexamination of something ordinary that illuminates the extraordinary,” said Breeze. 

Curator Statement:

Time and Again

Within a five-mile radius of Instar Lodge which was originally built in the 1800’s as the Odd Fellows Lodge, every artist featured in Time and Agian resides.  The selected artists were all drawn to their new home from somewhere else—no one is native and no one knew one another before coming to this place: Germantown, New York. Why is there this emergence, now?
Originally, the Odd Fellows were a group of makers and artists left out of the guilds, who banded together with three interlocking rings representing ‘Truth, Love, and Friendship’ as their guiding motto. They organized for the purpose of conducting charity and pursuing projects for the benefit of all mankind. Thinking of their history and our time now, one must ask again, what is the purpose of an artist’s work?
Within each artist’s work in Time and Again, there is a recognition of what was once before, something not seen frequently now.  There is also a theme of Re -- as in everything that is done again, such as: reimagining, reliving, repurposing, revisiting, recycling and reinventing.  Which moves the artists work into the revival of the actual space, now being reinhabited with new Odd Fellows. 
By definition, revival means a growth or increase in the activity of something after a long period of dormancy.  Perhaps these artists are not the ‘new’ Odd Fellows reinhabiting the Lodge but rather an instar of one continual life cycle, much like the cicada.  Perhaps, time and again the artist emerges to help the community remember its benevolent origins rooted in creativity.

Dawn Breeze 8/20/16



"I wish to share and elevate the quotidian; the moment photographed presents an opportunity to transcend, amuse, and exaggerate life on earth."


“Residing in the small village of Germantown is like living on a moon or satellite - tethered by the gravity of its mother metropolis but free from its everyday happenings. Out here, I'm able to revisit the same subjects over and over again without being hijacked by too much visual information.”


“While pulling up the layers of floor from the kitchen, slight wafts were released of meals from long ago. I started to wonder about the former occupants, and for a moment had the sensation that time collapsed, and we were there together.”


“Now my roots are deep in Germantown. I will continue to place things next to other things.”


“I knew I was “home“ when I bought my house in Germantown. I sleep in the same northwestern corner of a charming old home that sits the same distance from the railroad tracks, on the same ridge above the river , that my childhood bedroom did in Hastings. Time and again, I’m moved by the western light as it bounces across the river, The sound of the train, the anticipation of each season and my sensory familiarity.”


“Time, I think, is very peculiar. We seem to be able to measure it, but if we look away from a clock, what we call time no longer exists, easily an hour is lost in a book that felt like ten minutes or ten minutes in a waiting room becomes 'an hour.' Who really are we in relation to a time that no other animal seems to care about?...If we gave human traits to timepieces the way we seem to extract the irrational duration in the absence of clocks, wouldn't that be a fitting poetic revenge?”


“Germantown, despite its small size, is a seemingly bottomless reservoir of creative energy. Perhaps the greatest pleasure of being here is the continuous process of discovering new artists hidden along its quiet country roads.”


"Listen to the whispers of the trees/ get lost in the depth of the night sky/ and communicate without words."


These vase forms themselves are odes to spring and the first big burst of the spring tulips. The vases are silhouettesof the broad floppy tulip leaves -- which likewise resembles the silhouette of the pregnant young woman, bulging gracefully with new life.


I am captivated with the impossibility of measuring "becoming"--or how we notice the tiniest transformation of one form into another.  Time for me is an attempt to mark infinity, it is a way of understanding our relation to a an evolving place.

ARTSEEDS (children from Throwing Seeds art class)


"Art means to me my heart is full of love for art.... I love my life of drawing art... [Art] helps me think up a beautiful paper— a paper with 'beautiful oops' patterns... You can make anything up anywhere in the world, even in Los Angeles or California or San Francisco. That's the end."


“A piece of art is beautiful and special. Pieces of art are beautiful in different ways. Art is fun to make.”


“Art means to me creativity, fun, peace and joy!”

Scarlet Letters, Stitch-In-&-Away

In the exhibit Time and Again Dawn Breeze (artist/ founder of Instar Lodge) shares her Scarlet Letters--two handwork pieces where she transcribed pages of her adolescent diary and a “love” letter from a first boyfriend.  These works reveal intimate knowledge of a young girl that is often kept private, pestering with misguided shame. 

Breeze led a transformative group stich-in-&-away.  She invited the public to bring a word, a phrase, or an actual letter that someone at some point gave them that caused a feeling of shame.  Through their handwork they reclaimed power over the words, transforming them into art.  Together the participants revealed their words, stitching them in a way that heals and bound them courageously together. Shame is only shame when it is kept hidden.

When: Sept. 27th from 3-6pm

Limited to 12 participants